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Well...it's been a long time. I doubt that any of you would know who I am, it's been so long. I haven't thought about Hulla in years. Not directly anyways. I wouldn't be here at all if I hadn't run into someone who, not knowing me for more than a few minutes, happened to casually mention that he was at the final farewell. That was a week ago. I didn't think much of it until I found myself here tonight. You would think it was largely irrelevant to me, the last Hulla I attended was in some dusty underground parking lot a few lifetimes ago and my life today is decidedly un-hardcore...but it was a fateful night, in more ways than one, and maybe that's why I'm here now. The intervening years have been interesting to say the least. Well, for those that knew me then, I'll say a few words. I think you will understand, even if you didn't know me...there was something in the air back then, wasn't there? For those that didn't, make what you will of it, and leave it alone...

So yes, it is me, from back in the day, or should I say night? A lifetime, if you really think about it, not just a few years worth of Saturday nights. Sunday mornings. Everything so real, so there, so right. Too bad none of it was real. No...that isn't true, not exactly. I can still taste the air, still feel it on my skin. It was real enough that my breath still catches when the night air is just so. I still get butterflies. That it all occured on some other plane that few could reach is irrelevent.
Sometimes I think if I wanted it bad enough I could have it all again. Things don't always turn out the way you plan though do they?
Those days are gone, and so, truly, is DreameChilde. Her keeper is still here, but I had to let her go. She's happy where she is, on that other plane. Its where she belongs, and while there are moments when I still feel the bitterness of her loss I couldn't live there anymore.
"Once you grow up you can never go back." Funny. I never understood that then. I still believe there is peace out there. There will always be some of that child in me. That's okay. I'm not ashamed of her anymore.

I hope you're all well.

Love
~dc

It was worth it.

July 18th, 2005, 12:33 AM	#1
DreameChilde Hullaboarder Join Date: May 1999	I heard it through the grape vine Well...it's been a long time. I doubt that any of you would know who I am, it's been so long. I haven't thought about Hulla in years. Not directly anyways. I wouldn't be here at all if I hadn't run into someone who, not knowing me for more than a few minutes, happened to casually mention that he was at the final farewell. That was a week ago. I didn't think much of it until I found myself here tonight. You would think it was largely irrelevant to me, the last Hulla I attended was in some dusty underground parking lot a few lifetimes ago and my life today is decidedly un-hardcore...but it was a fateful night, in more ways than one, and maybe that's why I'm here now. The intervening years have been interesting to say the least. Well, for those that knew me then, I'll say a few words. I think you will understand, even if you didn't know me...there was something in the air back then, wasn't there? For those that didn't, make what you will of it, and leave it alone... So yes, it is me, from back in the day, or should I say night? A lifetime, if you really think about it, not just a few years worth of Saturday nights. Sunday mornings. Everything so real, so there, so right. Too bad none of it was real. No...that isn't true, not exactly. I can still taste the air, still feel it on my skin. It was real enough that my breath still catches when the night air is just so. I still get butterflies. That it all occured on some other plane that few could reach is irrelevent. Sometimes I think if I wanted it bad enough I could have it all again. Things don't always turn out the way you plan though do they? Those days are gone, and so, truly, is DreameChilde. Her keeper is still here, but I had to let her go. She's happy where she is, on that other plane. Its where she belongs, and while there are moments when I still feel the bitterness of her loss I couldn't live there anymore. "Once you grow up you can never go back." Funny. I never understood that then. I still believe there is peace out there. There will always be some of that child in me. That's okay. I'm not ashamed of her anymore. I hope you're all well. Love ~dc It was worth it.